I rarely talk about it, but I spent 7 days in the Peruvian Amazon doing ayahuasca for 5 nights.
Still very difficult to talk about the experience in a way that makes sense but it changed my beliefs and outlooks in a profound way.
I saw myself die and believed it enough (still do) that I lost my fear of flying (because I know and believe exactly how I'll die).
I was shown every single lie I've ever told, even the ones that I forgot. The ones that bothered me the most were the smallest ones because they served no purpose at all. When I got back to work I told my boss what I was actually doing in the jungle. I thought I'd get fired or drug tested. In stead my boss gave me even more leeway and freedom at work after we talked about my schedule and performance. Every time I replaced an old lie with a new truth to the person I had lied to, things got better not worse. I was afraid and hiding for nothing, worse than nothing, it was hurting me.
Truly, impossible to explain. Each night an eternity. I forgot who I was, I forgot what I was. I became a truly impartial observer. (The vomiting was awful). In a single night all of us there became close friends. Hard not to when you hear people screaming their demons aloud in the pagoda as you scream yours out as well.
There was nothing left to hide.
I'll probably never do it again, but my life would be worse if I had never done it at all.
I did this in 2009, in peru. Ehhh, I was so thoroughly freaked out at what is known as "ego death", I recited my name, DOB, address & names of my family members, for hours, to stay grounded in this physical plane. At some point, even that failed & the floodgates of madness were flung open. I sincerely believe ayahuasca punches a hole in one's mental / spiritual armor meant to protect the psyche from demons/spirits from other realms, for the duration of the trip. It was much more than I bargained for, in a bad way. It is an ass kicker of a concoction of herbs & what have you. Hard.Pass. Never again
Surprised you did this with a group. All the normies doing this crying about their BS divorce or whatever. Having take huge doses 'medicine' - I've had the best experiences alone in a completely dark room. music through headphones occasionally as a way to have some structure or grounding as you dive into yourself.
High enough doses and you experience ego death. The person you think of as 'you' disappears and you understand that 'you' don't exist.
People out here having 'revelations' yet these things are a dime a dozen. You get the extreme opposite side with guys going nutz thinking there are secrets or "deeper" truths inside. Yet the deeper meaning is that there is no deeper meaning. The power of these medicines to create new neural pathways can be positive to get out of a funk yet it can be negative and stop you from thinking clearly if you abuse it.
As anyone who has accomplished anything knows. taking a pill or a quick solution isn't a permanent fix. It's interesting and useful experience, yet like with near-death experiences, it's all temporary. 6 months, to a couple of years later and it all fades and you are back to the baseline.
"adventures in consciousness" are fun yet the only real change to be made is systematically breaking down all the lies that we are fed in life.
Reading the line “You know with 100% certainty who you are supposed to keep close to you and who you should leave behind.” Makes the beginning of efficiency even more impactful.
omfg, Of all the posts filled w disclaimers (NFA this, DYOR that) the ONE that actually needs one, like in the damn subject line! doesn't have it!
Had it said "Caution! If you're someplace where it's expected that you keep quiet, pay attention and politely cough into your sleeve, DO NOT READ THIS!', I wouldn't have been overcome w uncontrollable snorting outbursts of laughter during my little niece's interpretive dance recital! 🤦🏼 lmao
After multiple shhhsh-ings I had to escort myself out of the kids auditorium. Bro I lost it at *He takes his shirt off* 😭 it was downhill from there. *swallows gallon hot embers* 💀.
Look I know it's a serious spiritual thing, it's not supposed to be funny, but I guess when you not supposed to laugh.. down I go..
Why was I reading BTB post at a children's recital? Thing was like 4 hours long! Figured a quick peek not gonna hurt anybody! Oof.
I rarely talk about it, but I spent 7 days in the Peruvian Amazon doing ayahuasca for 5 nights.
Still very difficult to talk about the experience in a way that makes sense but it changed my beliefs and outlooks in a profound way.
I saw myself die and believed it enough (still do) that I lost my fear of flying (because I know and believe exactly how I'll die).
I was shown every single lie I've ever told, even the ones that I forgot. The ones that bothered me the most were the smallest ones because they served no purpose at all. When I got back to work I told my boss what I was actually doing in the jungle. I thought I'd get fired or drug tested. In stead my boss gave me even more leeway and freedom at work after we talked about my schedule and performance. Every time I replaced an old lie with a new truth to the person I had lied to, things got better not worse. I was afraid and hiding for nothing, worse than nothing, it was hurting me.
Truly, impossible to explain. Each night an eternity. I forgot who I was, I forgot what I was. I became a truly impartial observer. (The vomiting was awful). In a single night all of us there became close friends. Hard not to when you hear people screaming their demons aloud in the pagoda as you scream yours out as well.
There was nothing left to hide.
I'll probably never do it again, but my life would be worse if I had never done it at all.
This is the perfect post to share on LinkedIn.
I did this in 2009, in peru. Ehhh, I was so thoroughly freaked out at what is known as "ego death", I recited my name, DOB, address & names of my family members, for hours, to stay grounded in this physical plane. At some point, even that failed & the floodgates of madness were flung open. I sincerely believe ayahuasca punches a hole in one's mental / spiritual armor meant to protect the psyche from demons/spirits from other realms, for the duration of the trip. It was much more than I bargained for, in a bad way. It is an ass kicker of a concoction of herbs & what have you. Hard.Pass. Never again
What did I just read…
Been waiting for a meaningful post for a long time. Godspeed
Surprised you did this with a group. All the normies doing this crying about their BS divorce or whatever. Having take huge doses 'medicine' - I've had the best experiences alone in a completely dark room. music through headphones occasionally as a way to have some structure or grounding as you dive into yourself.
High enough doses and you experience ego death. The person you think of as 'you' disappears and you understand that 'you' don't exist.
People out here having 'revelations' yet these things are a dime a dozen. You get the extreme opposite side with guys going nutz thinking there are secrets or "deeper" truths inside. Yet the deeper meaning is that there is no deeper meaning. The power of these medicines to create new neural pathways can be positive to get out of a funk yet it can be negative and stop you from thinking clearly if you abuse it.
As anyone who has accomplished anything knows. taking a pill or a quick solution isn't a permanent fix. It's interesting and useful experience, yet like with near-death experiences, it's all temporary. 6 months, to a couple of years later and it all fades and you are back to the baseline.
"adventures in consciousness" are fun yet the only real change to be made is systematically breaking down all the lies that we are fed in life.
Truth does exist.
Only those that have been in that realm can truly understand...life changing
The Tiger lives in the Spiritual Realm….
This writing is so good.
What a post.
Thank you for sharing.
Reading the line “You know with 100% certainty who you are supposed to keep close to you and who you should leave behind.” Makes the beginning of efficiency even more impactful.
stay toon’d, indeed
Message is clear
So how does this compare to a proper shroom dose or acid dose? As far as emotional enlightenment or cleansing goes.
omfg, Of all the posts filled w disclaimers (NFA this, DYOR that) the ONE that actually needs one, like in the damn subject line! doesn't have it!
Had it said "Caution! If you're someplace where it's expected that you keep quiet, pay attention and politely cough into your sleeve, DO NOT READ THIS!', I wouldn't have been overcome w uncontrollable snorting outbursts of laughter during my little niece's interpretive dance recital! 🤦🏼 lmao
After multiple shhhsh-ings I had to escort myself out of the kids auditorium. Bro I lost it at *He takes his shirt off* 😭 it was downhill from there. *swallows gallon hot embers* 💀.
Look I know it's a serious spiritual thing, it's not supposed to be funny, but I guess when you not supposed to laugh.. down I go..
Why was I reading BTB post at a children's recital? Thing was like 4 hours long! Figured a quick peek not gonna hurt anybody! Oof.
good post tho!
What a ride! Enjoyed this post! Was the advice of the dead relatives any good?
So....Did you guys get anything out of it, or what? Hard to tell from this post.
Is this my sign it’s time to try it?